Things are Fuck-ing Super
I'm so stoned right now I can't even think. I would write something dramatic and "Julie-esque" but right now all I want to do is watch TV chill the hell out. Or maybe not.... someone's at the door! Time to go play ;)
January 23, 2005
January 17, 2005
What Time is It?
Timing always kicks you in the ass. Things never seem to happen when I want them to, and when they do happen I find I'm never ready for them. I could just be doing this to myself though. There's far too much on my plate and I'm the one going for seconds, and sometimes a third helping. If you haven't figured it out, I'm not talking about food. :P Time is a funny thing though. At times I find I wish it would just stop and sometimes I find myself wishing that time would just move faster. As time passes I'm getting older. I can't wait for things to happen. If I do that, then where would I be. Probably in my room, watching T.V. and wallowing in my own self-pity. This is turning into one of those epiphany speeches, so I'm just going to end this by saying that if I didn't take time, grab it by the neck and give it a good throttling -- I'd probably not be as content with myself as I am at this very moment in time.
January 13, 2005
My 22nd Year
So I'm starting a whole new segment of my life. I don't know where it's going and I don't know what I'm doing, but hopefully things will play themselves out the way I hope they will. If not, well I'll cry about it for about fifteen minutes and continue on. I don't know a lot, but I feel like I do. One of the things I'm sure of is that I can't live in the moment anymore, no matter how nice the moment may be at the time. I can try and make it last, but it never does; so, why would I want to stick around? HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME, I suppose...but I mean, it was yesterday. There's so many new people and new things happening in my life I feel like my head is spinning off, but the funny thing about it is that I actually kind of like it. As hectic as things are I really need to keep myself busy. Mainly to stop thinking about one thing... because I know it's not thinking about me.
P.S. Thanks Ferrah, It makes me feel better to know that someone can understand how I feel, without being obligated or trying too hard.
January 06, 2005
Just Breathe...
If I don't think I'll be fine, but how do I go to work, do my job and not think about anything when thinking is all there is that I can do? Just let it go, I suppose. If I just didn't think about things so hard, I could just realize that they're not as bad as they seem. I can't help but think they are though. Thinking sucks, why can't I just get my answers now. Where is everyone? I feel so detached from everything I thought I had together.
P.S. whoever "sunshine" is, let yourself be known, I'm tired of the mystery already!
January 05, 2005
Confused?
Why is it that when I think I have something, I find myself later feeling like I don't. I have so much running through my mind right now it's hard to believe that I haven't checked myself in yet. I just don't understand why people don't do what they say and say what they mean. This does not apply to only one specific person or one specific situation, but a few of them are coming to mind. I think it's lack of communication that's getting to me. I guess the world really doesn't revolve around me; however, I find myself wishing that it would -- right now :P
